Broken heart...

Today...
Today went not that well...
I thought i could escape it,but love was stronger...
Today 17.October,a day i thought would be beautiful and full of passion and love...
But i was wrong,love there was,but i could not reach it...
I felt alone,helpless,defenceless...
Why,why do i always have to feel this way???
We huged,i felt it again... was it love?
I don't know,and... its better this way!
What shall i do? shall i follow my heart,my feelings,or just forget the past and move on???
Questions like theese,i have many... but answers,none...
Life sucks...